Micah 7:8 "Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy: when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the LORD shall be a light unto me."

Dear young girl, dear mother, dear WOMAN,

God is King! No matter what situation you are going through and no matter how hard life gets, keep having faith and be fearless because God is in control. Run to God! Talk to Him and share your worries with Him because God is a giving and a loving one! His arms are always open for us.  Psalm 145:18 “The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.”

Accepting Jesus-Christ as my Lord and Savior has give my life a purpose.  He saved me and  brought light in darkness, turned destresse into faith and replaced depression with peace and joy. I am sharing my testimony to glorify God and give Him praise by sharing what He has done in my life. May this testimony bring others to you, O Lord!

Giving my life to Christ has made me a new person. My mindset and boundaries changed, my habits and my circle changed, my way of speaking and presenting myself changed. Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!”

To understand where the "new me" is coming from, I will present my old  self to you. I grew up in a catholique congolese happy family. In my family I had that reputation of the "perfect child". My grades in school were always good,  I've never disaboyed my parents and always agreed to everything they said. Growing up I heard a lot about God from my parents. They kept telling me to pray and went to church with me every Sunday. But I wasn't genuiely interested in getting to know Him on a deeper level.  I never had a lot of friends in school. I used to be lonely most of the time and a bit "different" then other girls in my age. I used to get bullied as well and felt left out.

I had my first boyfriend by the age of 17. My first relationship gave me the feeling of finally being seen and being wanted. It was the very first strong connection I had with someone outside my family. I also started having more "friends", doing my make up and dressing up more. I wanted to be seen and be like the famous girls in school. Very superficial. Unfortunately, the friends I used to hang out with and the boys I used to date were having a bad influence on me. I started drinking, going to night clubs and dressing in a revealing way. The whole opposite of how my parents had raised me. I was a young girl still trying to find herself and figuring out what's good for her and what she wants. I went through abusive and toxic relationships and I only had superficial friendships. A new chapter of my life began by the age of 19. I gave life to my beautiful daughter. An angel sent to Earth.

Before we start talking about that new chapter of my life, I want to talk to you and say something to my old self . Dear young girl, you might get bullied, feel left out or not feel good enough. God loves, values, protects and accepts you! You're special and the daughter of a King. Walk with confidence and love yourself!  God loves you with all your flaws and imperfections. He is faithful and caring. Talk to Him and He will manifest Himself in your life. He will fullfill you and release you from the feeling of emptiness. Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you."” 

I got pregnant when I had no stable income, no car, no driving licence, no job and I was still in Uni. My relationshp with the father of my child was falling apart and we were not married. I never expected to have a child in those conditions. I fell into a deep depression and felt like a failure. I deceived my parents and myself. I was lost and didn't know how to deal with that situation. Even therapy couldn't help. I lost hope in all my future plans. People around me started looking down on me, judging me and even laughing about my situation.

I was very scared to tell my father about my pregnancy. He is very strict and traditional what made me very scared of his reaction. Surprisingly, his reaction was the whole opposite of what I expected. He stayed very calm and didn't show any sign of disappointment or rage. He looked me in the eyes and said: "Don't let the enemy succeed and pray ." His calmness touched my heart and I followed his advice. During postpartum, I started talking to God and asked Him: "Father, why did you abandon me?". God answered my question. He made me realize that due to my attachement to the worldly things in life I turned my back on Him. The situation I was going through was spiritual. Prayer was the only solution and weapon that could resolve my problems. "May no weapon formed against me propser" became my daily prayer (Isaiah 54:17). I asked God to give me strenght to fight for my destiny and invoked the Holy Spirit to guide me.  

God heard my voice, he heard my cries and wiped my tears. 

I decided to go back to Uni. I decided to go to driving school and look for a way to provide for me and my child. I became an business owner and opened my online store. Being an entrepreneur, a student and a mother while having to deal with postpartum needed a lot of discipline and strength. But God was providing me the power I needed.  For the love of my child, I couldnt quit. I was determined and wanted to give my daughter the best version of myself. I broke up with my child's father because the relationship was no longer serving me and affecting my mental health.

God has give me victories! I succesfully finished my studies, has build a stable income for me and my daughter, got my driving license, bought my first car and got the job I wanted. My beautiful daughter is three years old now and the most loveliest and happiest child I know. And for all this I say; Glory to God!

Today  I am standing here and can declare that I am a living testimony.  Where people reject you, condemn you and declare that life is over for you, that's when God manifests Himself. He will give you the strenght to stand up when you fail. He will heal your heart when it's broken. He will justify you when you are being judged. Look for recovery and advices from God. Consult Him and let Him be your therapist and you will see the results. Be fearless and walk in faith! Be the fearless it girl! A child of God doesn't fear the work of evil beacuse you are guided by the Holy Spirit and armed with a weapon made by Heaven; Prayer. God will lead you to victory!

 
Psalm 23:4: "Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me."

Amen!